What is supposed to come first to me? Most teenagers would say school or friends. Some would say things like relationships or family or whatever. But me, personally? What comes first? I don't know. Diabetes? School? Friends? I have yet to find how to balance all these things.
Most teenagers already have a lot on their plate, but throw in type one diabetes and you get something completely different. Sometimes I just want to stop. Stop diabetes. Stop insulin. Just stop. But we all know I can't do that. I want to be a "normal" teenager but I can't do that either.
So in these teen years, am I supposed to put diabetes first? Or should I put school first? Or friends? Or somehow find a way to put all these things first?
My diabetes care is slipping lately, I know. And I know why. It's because of the school work, the stress, the friends. Sometimes it's easier to let a 200 be if I don't feel bad. I need to do better.
But it feels impossible to do better diabetes wise when I'm trying to do my best everywhere else too. Is it okay for diabetes to not always be number one?
How do you prioritize? What's number one on your list?
I was diagnosed when I was 17, so I was just finishing school and looking to go to university in the September. I still struggle now with balancing everything, let alone whilst still at school. I think the fact that you're even thinking that you need to do better with your diabetes is amazing!
ReplyDeleteI hope starting back at school hasn't caused you too many blood sugar problems and I look forward to reading more of your posts. Your blog is one of my favourites!
- Vicki.